Blinking My Melody

13/8/22 1:29 pm - summer good so far.

category: personal | mood: satisfied apart from a small depressive episode at the beginning, this summer has been decent. i managed to cure my ennui and found satisfaction in my literary and other pursuits. i only have just above 2 weeks before returning to school. i also got my braces removed and my teeth are finally free.

5/8/22 7:32 pm - super fun day today

category: experiences | mood: happy
took a boat out to the sea today with a bunch of friends and had a terrific time. we mostly hung out on the inflatables and went wave riding on a banana boat dragged by another speed boat. it was superfun swimming out in the rain.

20/7/22 6:15 pm - another cd!

category: products

after i went to art, me and my friend ate at shatin and i bought a new cd from the cd warehouse in the mall. there was evanescence, mcr and greenday. i chose greenday (american idiot)! next time i'm probably going to get the fallen cd, still couldn't find any paramore :(

anyways i just noticed that the links in navigation my navigation bad don't even work... i'll try to fix that and if it doesn't then i'll just have to abanndon it and stick to just one page for my blog..

18/7/22 4:55pm - went to the beach yesterday

category: experiences | mood: decent
went to the beach with my family and another, just like we did last year. wasn't as nice though, but still i had fun.

13/7/22 7:42 am - reflection on the state of late 2000s - early 2010s fandom culture

category: entertainment | mood: morbidly curious
its like being at a zoo, watching the animals do whatever shit they do... i find it fascinating how invested people can be in a fictional character/tv show/franchise... and how far some people will go for their arbitrary shippings and characters! scrolling through old glee tumblr is truly a trip, especially those klaine shippers. currectly watching a twilight fandom video essay and just finshed going down a sherlock fandom rabbithole. now when i first came across the show (soley by chance) i remembered saying to my friend how despite having never interacted with the sherlock fandom before, i already knew they were gonna be crazy. then she mentioned "johnlock" which i just discovered there was a whole fandom conspiracy for. one very common theme in these fandoms is grown ASS adults with jobs harrasing actors, writers, and devoting their lives into fighting whatever shipping war is taking place. i don't hate them for it, rather i find it very intriging and even entertaining. i honestly cannot name a fandom that comes close to what i just described.

7/7/22 4:20 pm - disneyland trip was fun

category: experiences | mood: eh
went to disneyland yesterday. it was super humid but i for sure had a nicer time than the ocean park trip. went on tons of rides and ate lots of snacks. i definitely prefer disney to oceanpark!

1/7/22 5:47 pm - happy july

category: products

went to ocean park yesterday! the rides and exhibits were nice, but bad food...

exactly last week i bought an ipad air 5 purple color! i bought some a new case, some pencil nibs and a matte screen protector. really satisfied with it. hope to put it to good use next term.

24/6/22 1:05 pm - i can't really describe my feelings, but its sad...

category: personal | mood: personal
Here’s how my last day went: boring maths blah, then this stupid “party” where the entire year 10 crowded into the 2nd floor hub. I played uno, that was fun. Then we had final assembly merged with his talent show thing. I can’t tell who was worse… but I will say a particular house was very good and another very bad. Guess which one one? The bad one, as usual. I’m so done. This years summer is going to be the longest ever- 2 whole months!!! That probably doesn’t sound a lot to Americans who get off in may and start in September, but pretty good for me. Except that the upcoming year 12s and 13s apparently have to start early… I got a little bit emotional as I walked out and into the mtr. I can’t believe I’m going to say this, but I think year 10 has been the best and the fastest year I’ve ever experienced. not to get cheesy, but I finally discovered my real passions and interests, and found true self. Next year I hope to stop caring what people think of me completely. Anyways, I felt as if I was starting a new chapter in my life - in a way I was terrified of the future, but also did not want to go back at all. I’m eating at Shatin and holy crap this mall is INFESTED with kids from my school and especially from my year…. Hope that I can buy an iPad today <3

23/6/22 8:59 am - second last day of school

category: study & school | mood:bittersweet
you can tell im very excited to be leaving year 10. they had to remind us again at assembly about the year 11's going to dp, which just made me plain depressed and a tiny bit envious, or maybe not... one last year of this bs and its over. this year has been the fastest ever, i still remember the last days of school in year 9 and the summer before year 10 super distinctly. sometimes i just have to stand still and take in how quickly time is flashing by me. hopefully year 11 will be just as fast.

21/6/22 1:24 pm - last lesson of english, science of the year!

category: study & school | mood: even more relieved
as the title says, just had my last few lessons of some subjects for the year. english was horrible. the t-k (an infamous teacher in my school whom i unfortunately had this year) made us to completely uneeded work which we will probably never need in the future for our last lesson for english. at the end something hilarious happened.... she put up this countdown for lunch except that the voice counting down was one of a ridiculous circus announcer or something. i could not stop laughing. on friday i am only taking math (ewww) because the rest of the day we have our end-of-year assembly.

11/6/22 7:19pm - my first cd!!

category: products | mood:excited-ish
yesterday i went to the shatin record store to look for some cd's. they still haven't got any paramore cd's and the greenday vinyl was expensive plus i dont have a vinyl player. LUCKILY they had 3 mcr cd's. i got the black parade and hoped to play it on my dad's old cd player, but it ended up not working so i ordered a new one off taobao.

10/6/22 11:51 am - updatez to the blog

category: entertainment
i have made some changes to the blog layout and created/renamed new categories. however i still have to design buttons for them and link the frames to the main page so bear with me here.
on the other hand.... i have begun reading a new book, its about Sherlock Holmes. Not a novel, but rather a compilation of stories. Last week during dragon boat festival when I had guests around, the tv show just happened to be playing. i binged that in 3 days. will rewatch it after i finished reading the book...

7/6/22 11:48 am - sat my last exam

category: study & school | mood: relieved, but with a looming sense of nervousness
i just sat my final two tests, the chinese was easy but the science exam was the hardest of this season. whatever. i still have a damn maths test after the report cards release... seriously what is the point of it??? to further enduce suffering?

6/6/22 1:18 pm - today there was a rainstorm

category: n/a | mood: annoyed (again)
it started rainging out of nowhere but thats not so unusual for hong kong. once the weather started worsening and water began to spray everywhere everyone went batshit. people filmed the rain on their phones like it was some monumental once in a century event. by the way they screamed and cried i could tell they had never touched grass in their entire lives.

2/6/22 12:13 pm - its over for me...

category: study & school | mood: annoyed
i got a 8 and 5 (1 point away from 6!!!! so frustrating!) in INS and a 7 in english. i dont know how i got a full score (highest in the class) but then a low score in the same exams, i guess im just really bad at "analysing" and doing anything other than writing a short answers. this is the lowest grade i've ever got on this subject. in my defense, I would written much more if it weren't for the tiny boxes. One of the posters i was supposed to analyse had like, 3 cm answer boxes while the poster was brimming with symbolism and shit. i think even my math and science grades were better (hopefully i didn't jinx myself there)! i got a good score in that specific criterion for my other assesments so hopefully my overall grade ends up unharmed.

1/6/22 1:30 pm - May shopping recap

category: places

from left to right: a summiko gurashi corquette from genki, when my mom dragged to out to harbour city to @ this mega expensive resturant, shatin ufufu waygu curry rice

25/5/22 12:29 pm - finally found time to code

category: personal | mood: bitter
ok i must confess. throughout these past months i have realised that i am truly a loner. no one in my class talks to me, my friends ditch me for some skinny pasty twink and only ignore me. i pride myself on seeing through hypocrisy very easily, and i would myself be a hypocrite if i said i'm not very unhappy. being on my own now sounds much more pleasant than "hanging out" and being depressed. i'm not very talkative, but these people take it as me being completely mute.

12/5/22 10:32 am - warning: DO NOT TAKE IBMYP OR PYP!!!!

category: n/a | mood: regret
to students and parents: DO NOT ENROLL YOUR CHILD IN THE IB MYP OR PYP PROGRAMME! ESPECIALLY IF YOU LIVE IN HONG KONG! biggest waste of money and time in my life. the amount of school fees i had to pay and to this day i still don't know basic maths. if you must take ib, then just do any other curriculum for primary and secondary and don't join ib until late myp.... i literally cannot wait for dp even though its hard as shit. at least i get an actual syllabus and proper materials to study off of. So much useless service they make you do just to fucking graduate.

5/5/22 10:04 pm - super busy

category: personal | mood: stressed
(side note, the time for this entry and the last have an exact 12 hour difference! :o)
exams are coming up, and since we don't have midterms i have to study the entire year syllabus from august to now... ugh. doesn't help that my school doesn't even give us any sort of revision checklist, syllabus, or anything to guide us. wow how hard is it? anyways enough whining. i've barely had time to work on my website but i promise this summer a lot of new changes will be coming!

28/4/22 10:04 am - so hot!!!

category: personal | mood: annoyed
it has been BOILING these days - i hear a new typhoon is coming along. it seems that every summer for pe the school forces us to play on the football field, always during the hottest day and time of the year. yesterdays heat was literally a health hazard. to put wound on the salt, they make us swim when it is actually freezing during the winter... ugh i have to go out to the field this afternoon.

24/4/22 9:40pm - new case 4 squishies

category: products | mood: tired

my mom got an entire case full of china, which was stored in a blue floral brocade casem lined with orange fabric.

18/4/22 8:48pm - new haircut n books

category: products

i got trimmed my bangs and cut my hair shorter in preperation for school then i stopped by the bookshop and found 2 books which i'm going to be studying in preperation for chinese b HL - if i can even get in.

15/4/22 10:23pm - wtf?

category: personal | mood: shocked
today at dinner my mom told me that my brother, who has been living under the same roof as our family, tested positive for covid-19 a couple weeks ago. i don't know when exactly, but it was supposedly before we went to dinner at a friends. according to her, it was a "faint" positive therefore there was "not enough" covid for transmission. also at the same time she suggested maybe i had also caught it and not noticed.

5/4/22 - biking + what i've been doing so far

category: personal | mood: painful

i went biking to tolo harbour and on the way, had lunch at a seaside resturant (poutine and pineapple fried rice). god my head really hurts so im going to go to bed early today.
last weekend was spent having dinner at a friends house, then going shopping the next day at an outlet - got some clothes.

1/4/22 1:54pm - april fools, easter holidays begin

category: personal

today was the last day of school before holidays - in 20 days (surprisingly a very long holiday) we will return back to face to face school.

23/3/22 12:23pm - rain rain, go away

category: personal | mood: frustrated

it has been cloudy for days and days now. today has been raining non stop. hoping that the sun will come out so i can take my squishy photos for the collections page. its official, we are going back to school this april. everyone seems to be extremely pumped but i sure am not, especially with all these cases and the all around disgusting hygiene of the school.

21/3/22 9:19am - nostalgic snacks

category: childhood & experiences
here are some of the snacks i used to consume pre pandemic times:

steamed rice rolls with or without filling in the middle. back when the school canteen was open, i would buy these very often. the sauce was heavenly 9/10

seaweed animal crackers in fun shapes. 6/10

wan wan biscuits came in various assortments of flavours and shapes. my favorite were the snow biscuits 8/10 for the snow ones and the classics, 7/10 for the cheese ones and 4/10 for the seaweed flavour.

gem biscuits??? i don't really know what to call these but i started eating them all the way back in kindergarden. 8/10

sausages with corn/spice 9/10 my grandmother would bring the mini ones (couldn't find any photos) whenever she would visit. they aren't avaliable here... 7/10

for some reason i call(ed) this "mamamee". you will find these in literally every 7/11 here. i think its meant to be boiled but no one actually eats it like that... the most commonly accepted method is to crush the (dry) nooddles in the packet, sprinkle the powder, shake it up, and then enjoy. then we have some other similar noodle snack products which are also great if ur looking for a smaller portion.8/10

ribena candy is addicting, my school vending machine used to sell them and i would share them with my friends. reminds me of memories like shopping at supermarket malls during the summer day. 6.8/10

8/3/22 2:50pm - the games of my childhood

category: childhood & experiences | mood: nostalgic
i used to be a casual gamer when i was younger, but stopped around the pandemic. i'm planning on revisiting again one of these summers - whenever i have the time to again.

i was introduced to this game when i was younger via one of my friends. i still remember it clearly - i was at her house where she introduced the game to me. i became quickly obsessed and played it constantly the following days. some of my other friends have accounts too - but now virually no one on my "buddy" list has been active.

Released in 2010, AJ is an online playground game where players can create animal characters, decorate their "den", go on adventures, play minigames, and interact with other players. I had a grand time on it but the membership fee (literally 70% of the experience could only be unlocked by purchasing membership) was too expensive.


a multiplayer strategy similar to werewolf/mafia. there are two factions - the "bad guys" (mafia/coven) and the "good guys" (the town). both of their goals is to win, the town by surviving and lynching all the enemies, and the neutral killing/mafia/coven by killing everyone. players are forced to lie, interrogate and investigate via their "roles" and abilities assigned to them.

super fun, but quite difficult to get good at. you have to pay to make an account now, but back when i was first introduced (by the same friend btw) it was free, so my account is grandfathered.


you all already know what this is, so im not gonna bother explaining. i forgot exactly when i started, but i still remember one of my first worlds - its probably still around... i quit playing around the cave update (shame...) which was more that enough time for me to explore skyblock, luckyblock, survival, and the hypixel servers. gosh, the fond memories i have playing on aternos servers with friends with my 1 fps from the shader packs (pretty, they made the game so slow).

i was never a fan of the new mcyt, but i was on quackity's server right before i stopped. man i put so much world into my base and it got destroyed when i didn't log on for 2 weeks..... rip all my pets. i still remember a ravine town i spent weeks building. it was turning out amazing until.... my world got corrupted and everything was lost. the only photo i had of it is probably gone too :( i remember being obsessed with popularmmos, gamingwithjen, thediamondminecart, hermit kingdom, and someother minecraft roleplay yters. when pat and jen broke up that signaled the end of my childhood.

SIMS 4 -

wow the amount of money i put into this game.... so many game/extension packs. before i quit playing, i had just downloaded the university ep but never got around to playing it. the graphics look amazing, but the gameplay from the previous sims games looks much better. my sims journey started when i was very young on my iphone 4/ipad playing the sims freeplay, i once also downloaded the sims 3 mobile game but i have no idea where that went. i dedicated many hours to perfectly curating my sims looks, downloading cc off of tumblr, and decorating the inside of their apartments.


this is a more recent game, and i probably would still be playing it if i hadn't gotten BANNED (long story short, when dream got doxxed, i shared some of the information that had been leaked online, which was my bad so i got banned permanently and they won't except my appeal). its essentially a dressup doll game that allows you to purchase clothing via the in game currency and interact with other players in chatrooms and forums.

the dressup part is amazing, god i miss the making those rainbow outfits, making magazines and decorating my profile so much. but the moderation sucks ASS... god the amount of scandals involving the shitty mod team are endless. one time one of the admins said something contreversial, and they ended up BANNING everyone who spoke out against them - you could get banned for posting a meme or some kpop lyrics because thats what they'd consider "harrasment". its a great game itself, but if you are going to join, i highly reccoment you STAY away from the forums and any sort of communication for your sake.


a multiplayer game, where you attempt to "eat" other players and grow the biggest. this and made me rage. not really much to say..

7/3/22 11:50am - this is great!

category: personal | mood: achy
i woke up with a horrible headache, so I decided i couldn't join my zoom classes and decided to go absent. just great, the only day where i am actually sick is the day where my math teacher finally teaches something i don't know, the day my ins teacher has important information about the summitive to introduce, and the day where i have my ONLY lesson to work on my art painting. i don't really have much of a choice so i guess i'll just join the art lesson later on.

6/3/22 11:09pm- plans w/ this blog

category: main

will be posting anything that comes to mind here, stay tuned. blog is currently a huge WIP, still experimenting with the layout.